Molly

Molly would have turned 8 years old yesterday.  It's weird how it can hit me right in the stomach every year.  We weren't very far along when we lost her but it's still an awful loss.  My heart drops to my stomach every time I think about her.  We are incredibly blessed though.  3 months after losing Molly we were shocked to find out we were pregnant.  I was terrified.  I was paralyzed with fear that we would lose this baby too.  For the first time we waited to tell people.  It was a rough pregnancy and ended up pretty dangerous for me and our sweet baby.  Thankfully, we made it through and delivered our healthy beautiful baby girl Caylie.  Molly's birthday is always hard for me.   She's my angel baby.   I'm glad Molly will never know pain or be disappointed or witness the evil of this world but I look forward to celebrating her birthday in heaven some day.   If we hadn't lost Molly we wouldn't have Caylie.  While the loss still hurts I feel so blessed to have Caylie.   She's an amazing, beautiful, sweet, precious girl.  I don't know how different my life would be had we not lost Molly, but I know God has a plan.   I have two precious girls.  I am a very lucky mom.