August

I love so many things about August. School is starting, new dance season beginning. My husband and many family members have birthdays. I love the season starting to change and our schedules getting back to normal. However, August is hard for me. Sometimes I don't even realize its happening. It just creeps in and overwhelms me. I try to push through but I just seem to drown in this funk. August is when Molly would have been born and as much as I try not to dwell on it I always feel like my legs are kicked out from under me. Justin was killed at the end of August last year and now as August approaches I feel like there's this huge ominous cloud hanging over the whole month.  Trying to focus on the good things and all my blessings but allowing myself to be human. Feelings happen, feelings suck sometimes but they happen.